Author Archives: Beth

Camcorder? What Camcorder?

Well, it happened. “Where’s the camcorder?” Mark asked the other night as we were going to sleep. Why? I wondered. In the 6 or 7 years since we’ve had it, he’s never asked to used it. Don’t be horrified that I made the executive decision to get rid of it. There are some things that Mark feels comfortable leaving to me. Small appliances that only I use is one of them.

When I simply told him that it was broken and I didn’t want to spend the time and money to get it repaired, he didn’t give it a second thought. No regret, no “we should have….” or “that cost a lot of money…” It was fine and he was at peace with the decision.

I was surprised that I didn’t regret the decision not to investigate repair. It was all fine. I just didn’t expect the question to surface so soon. I anticipated second thoughts-nope.

Spring Cleaning Made Easier

I’ve always wanted the house to be clean before Holy Week and have never been able to make it happen. This year, I did it and the house actually feels bigger. I don’t know if I made it to 40 bags over the 40 days. I may even have gotten more out of here. But the house is considerably lighter and getting rid of all that extra clutter really made it easier to clean.

I’m anticipating that it will make the house easier to keep clean.

The surprising result of decluttering-and this happens everytime I do a good one-it makes me less tolerant of any extra stuff. This doesn’t bode well for the Easter baskets this year-sorry kiddies. I’m enjoying the clear spaces and ready to go another round after Easter. I haven’t been bagging things up this week. I’m ready to exhale in anticipation of Holy Thursday through Sunday. I’m looking forward to spending some relaxed, quiet time with Mark and the kids and with my brothers and their families on Sunday. That’s a first since “spagetti Wednesday”(our annual night-before-Thanksgiving gathering).

I’ll be writing more about simplifying after the holiday.

Happy Easter.

Writing-Some Revolutionary Ideas

I attended our local homeschool conference. I haven’t attended a full day for a few years but I was interested in a few of the workshops. One piqued my interest. “Teaching the Reluctant Writer” by a representative from The Institute For Excellence in Writing. I’ve only heard good things about this program and have it in my basement but never used it because I thought I was missing some component of it.

The presenter was a veteran homeschool mom who started using the program with her then 5th or 6th grade boy who was her “reluctant writer”. She made a few points that were revolutionary to me.

#1 Teaching writing is like teaching an art. (This is not her idea-it’s a principle promoted by the creator of the program but I never thought of it this way). Asking a student who doesn’t have the foundation of life experience, vocabulary, spelling, language, etc. to sit down and write on a blank piece of paper about a topic (“How I spent my summer”) is like sitting a child in front of the piano and expecting them to play a song. The idea of lack of requisite foundation wasn’t news to me, it was thinking of writing as an art rather than a skill.  But now I see it as an art that requires skill and practice, along with other things. She used a funny example. A teacher might say to a child, “pretend you’re a reporter and write a newspaper article about your summer vacation.” Journalists get a college degree to do what they do. We wouldn’t say to a kid “pretend your a concert pianist at Carnegie Hall and play this piece.” Admittedly, I have asked Hannah to write about an incident in a story as if she were writing a newspaper article. I have to say, though, it was pretty good-then again, she’s not a reluctant writer.

#2 Helping a child who needs it is not cheating, it’s teaching.  As homeschool parents, we can tend to feel like we’re cheating if we help our children with certain things related to their work. Another shift in perspective for me. As homeschoolers, we also have the luxury of helping a child with whatever skill, concept, word, idea as long as they need it.

#3 Using a pencil is almost as distressing to a reluctant writer as the assignment, itself. A pencil only stays sharp for a few lines at most. Children, boys in particular, prefer the visual contrast of sharp, black lines. Which is why some children suffer from the cramped hand and broken points or they’re up every few minutes sharpening the pencil. The program advocates using ink for everything but the final draft. Have the child write on every other line. They can cross out words or phrases that they want to change and add words on the blank line above. This also aids the mental process of writing because they can see the whole progression. Again, a revolutionary concept, but one I can really relate to.

If you’re as old as I am, on the first day of school, you were issued a No. 2 pencil and a yellow tablet. You know the kind, with that soft paper and the blue lines. I remember the horrible feeling of writing on a fat tablet with a dull pencil.  If the pencil was too sharp, it tore the paper. I did love the feel of a ball point pen on this type of tablet and it was a tablet, not a “notebook”. Erasing was out of the question. It either smudged or tore a big hole in the paper. I couldn’t wait until junior high when I could use spiral notebooks or looseleaf paper and pens! To this day, I love the feel of writing with pen on a clean sheet of paper. I also prefer certain writing tips and inks to others. Writing is a total sensory experience for me and I wonder how much more I would have enjoyed it if I had been encouraged to use pen and cross out mistakes. Come to think of it, writing a draft or several was never part of the process.

Armed with these few principles, I feel empowered to dive into the program and help the kids become more confident and proficient writers. The truth is, none of the kids are reluctant writers, they all have a desire to write and love stories but some of them have not felt confident no matter how much I’ve tried to encourage them.

MARCH MADNESS

Who doesn’t love Mach Madness? I’ve loved the excitement of everything leading up to it and the tournament, itself since high school back in the “Phi Slamma Jamma” days. I didn’t start filling out brackets until graduate school and only then discovered how it made you care about ALL the games-not just your favorite teams.

As a mom, I still fill out my bracket. I don’t watch all the games, but I’ll sit down here and there to catch some of it. I love how it unites the family in a shared experience. Even Kate, who has no interest in the X’s and O’s of any sport, makes her picks and likes hearing who wins and loses. I think last year, she almost won the 6 bucks!

The Thursday afternoon that the tournament starts is one of the times that I love that the kids aren’t in school. Tip-off 12:20, pick your seat, grab the snacks. I’ll go to the mat defending this experience as education-though I don’t count it since Thurs. and Fri. are our typical weekends. This is the type of 3-D, real-world, delight-driven learning that grows the brain.  Handwriting, spelling, reading, math (what are the odds of Robert Morris winning the tournament, what’s the score-how many does RMU need to tie it up?) social studies, (wonder how Chief Kicking Stallion Sims got his name), physiology, language arts in its most applied, authentic form, all integrated naturally by the conversations that go along with it and topped off by the more frequent trips to the driveway hoop during time-outs and half times. Mind you, I don’t instigate or hijack any of the above naturally occurring “educational” moments, they happen spontaneously and usually without any input from me. I would never ruin the experience by trying to schoolify the tournament, I’m just saying they’re learning.

Admittedly, I don’t have much wisdom to offer to the chatter and pontificating since I don’t follow basketball all season but I love to listen to the conversations. I’m telling you, neurons are firing and brains are growing because its relevant. Maybe not relevant to the world-at-large, but March Madness is relevant to our world for the next 2 weekends and I’m grateful for the tradition.

Simplicity Parenting

If you are a parent and haven’t read this book yet by Kim John Payne, don’t waste another minute! I’ve read tons of parenting books, and “Simplicity Parenting” may be THE BEST, most practical, most articulate, most relevant parenting book of our time. I consider it a tool in the belt of anyone who is struggling to fight the tide of over-indulging, over-scheduling and over-obsessing about the kids. If you know that Less really is more but have a tough time explaining it to the other PTA moms or your parents or the aunts who think your kids are deprived because you don’t take them to the dollar store for fun-buy this book.


I really hesitate to go into detail into any of it, because I can’t possibly do it justice. The book, itself, is so clearly and thoughtfully written that I’ll just defer. Payne articulates so well, with tangible support, things that I know to be true but I’ll be darned if I can explain. 


He advocates creating a balance among 1) activity and busyness, 2) pauses and down time and 3) periods where the child is completely immersed in a pursuit for the pure enjoyment of it-(without you staging it). The kind of activity where he loses track of time. Payne discusses and supports why it’s critical to make time for each of these. But the book covers lots more.


The other thing I love about the book is that he’s just not hanging his hat on generalities. He doesn’t say, “such and such will lead to burnout”. Instead, he illustrates with sometimes brilliant analogies, how an imbalance and hyperparenting is so counterproductive.


I talk with a lot of parents about how invasive organized sports can be to our family even though the kids don’t do a lot of them. I love to watch the kids on the field, court, whatever, but I get so resentful about the disruption to good dinners, regular bedtimes and the overall routine and wellness of the family dynamic. I’ve said all along, that I think kids would be much better off playing baseball in each others’ backyards until they were 12 than starting T-ball when they were 4. It’s crazy and unnecessary. Payne generally agrees and he gives solid support for it.


Since Mark teaches tennis for a living, all of the kids had a racket in their hands at a very early age. I resisted as long as I could to jump into the tournament “circuit” but I wish I would have waited longer. Hannah and Luke were 9 and 8 when they started playing tournaments. Generally, the parents are hyper-involved, obsessing about points and line calls and ranking. Tennis is unique in that it has no clock, kids keep the score themselves and it is self-officiated -unless there is a problem. That’s a lot of pressure for any kid, let alone an 8 year old. I’m generally disenchanted with the tournament system for young players and think it’s really odd that most of the kids who are playing at this level hardly ever just go out and play for fun. I think people must think I’m odd that the kids don’t play more tournaments or every tournament. Finally, I have a resource to back up my intuition. I really don’t care what other parents think but it’s been challenging to articulate to Mark and the kids why I don’t think it’s a good thing to enter every tournament that comes down the pike. Naturally, they get caught up in the wave of expectation. “Everyone else is playing that tournament, why aren’t you? It’s double points!” 


Luckily, I don’t have to deal with the too-muchness of school but this book gives me even more incentive to carve out time where we don’t have anything scheduled. 


I’ve been reading snippets to Mark. He hasn’t disagreed with anything so far and he’s motivated to read it himself which I think will help in making simpicity a priority for him, too.

Phew!


Running to the confessional-he’s always making us laugh
 
I was wiped out by the time it was my turn to go into the confessional. Mark really wasn’t nervous (he was excited) and I knew he’d do fine but maybe because he’s the youngest and definitely less mature than Kate was at the same age, I was a tad stressed. I also wanted him to have a good experience. He did. We’re lucky to have a priest who supports my decision to prepare the kids for the sacraments at home but he’s also very smart and loves to tell the kids about obscure things that he’s learned and you never when he’s going to start firing questions at them. But he was so kind and I heard him ask Mark as he was opening the door, “See, wasn’t that easy?” It was a good, mostly grace-filled day.
    
Luke and Mark being silly on the way out
 
 
Congratulations Mark, God Bless! We love you!
“Oh God, who exalted Blessed Mark thy evangelist
by the grace of preaching the gospel, grant,
we beseech thee that we may ever profit by his teaching
and be defended by his prayers, through Jesust Christ,
Our Lord, Amen”

Approaching the Books

As a homeschooler, it’s very difficult to let go of books. Some of the best homeschool support and reference books aren’t typically available in the library. Curricula specific to homeschoolers is hardly ever available. The same goes for Catholic books, both fiction and non-fiction. Those are the main categories that I purchase the most and have the hardest time purging. And to be honest I looooooove the look, feel, even the smell of a good book in my hands. I’m attached.

This is a tough purge but I’m applying 4 criteria.

1) Is the resource readily available at the library? If so, I don’t need it.

This standard helped me purge books like specific animal books (polar bears, bats, lions, etc.), some books about weather, planets, that kind of thing. This was easier to do if I decided that the quality of the book wasn’t that great.

2) Have I used the resource often or within the past 2-3 years? (I think for other things one year is a good limit but with books, we often come back to a topic or time period a few years later as the younger kids revisit it ). If we did study the subject matter that the book covers, did we use this particular resource? If not, bah-bye.

3) Does the book have a schizophrenic quality. You know the kind, you open it and are assaulted with scads of pictures or drawings all over the 2 page lay-out with blurbs or captions for each small vignette.

Most Usborne and DK books are formatted in this way and some are good but generally, they give me a headache just looking at them and I think that presentation can be overwhelming. Come to think of it, most of the textbooks that the schools use have this format which is why I don’t use them. Sensory overload, which is not what I’m looking for at this point. Less is more in this regard, too. I won’t get rid of books like this if the kids have actually used and enjoyed them, though.

4) Do I need to apply the principles of detachment and trust? Abby Sascer has a great ebook available here in which she replaced the term decluttering for detachment. There’s plenty of scriptural support for this principle and she makes a good case for it as well. I realize that if I don’t detach from my stuff, including books, I’m not going to achieve order in my home. Things aren’t totally chaotic here, far from it but there are things that we have to simplify in order to focus on the things that matter. The problem is that stuff gets in the way of even knowing what matters. “Trust” applies to letting go of resources that the kids likely won’t use for a few years. Here, I’m dispensing with the “we-might-use-it-some-day” mentality. It takes trust to tell myself that if the kids are studying that particular topic in 2 or 3 years, then I will have the resources to provide what they need and most likely it will be a better fit.

Finally, it might seem wasteful, but I decided to recycle or donate books whose pages are yellowing, staple bound (like cheap scholastic books) and any books that have seen better days. I think holding junky books detracts from the innate pleasure of reading. No matter how classic the story is, if the book is beaten up, it’s getting chucked.

Now the debate about what to do with all of these books. Some will most definitely go to the library. I can offer homeschooling friends a look-see, but I so hesitate to clutter up their bookshelves. (Any of my friends reading can shoot me an email-trust me, you probably don’t want or need what I’m getting rid of).  I may take them to the used book sale at our local homeschool conference next week, but again, that’s a lot of energy. I think I’ll have more tolerance for expending energy on “stuff” after lent. I’ve been toying with the idea of letting my older 2 children list books on half.com. Sort of like a mini-business. They can enter them, price them, prepare them for mailing and I can get them to the post office.

I’ll let you know how this is going as I work on this area of clutter in the house.

My Youngest Sheep

Mark’s making his first Reconciliation today. I wasn’t sure at the beginning of the year that he’d be ready, spiritually speaking-Lord knows he’s ready behaviorally. I wanted to be sure he appreciates the magnitude of the grace he’ll receive, what it means to be forgiven no matter what and frankly, to remember his sins.

He knows right from wrong, for sure. What’s hilarious (and this has been true for some of the other kids) is that he’s worried that he won’t be able to think of any sins when he gets in there. Without being specific (“How about when you complain about doing your chore every morning”, “How about when you kicked your brother last week?”), I’ve been trying to guide him in the “types” of things that little boys do that could be viewed as sinful. I don’t want to hand him his litany of sins on a platter. But honestly, how hard can it be? So, I’ve been trying to remind him to pray to the Holy Spirit to help him remember his sins so he can make a good confession, we’ve done an examination of conscience for kids (though not as regularly as we should) and he knows his prayers. He doesn’t seem to be worried about the progression of things once inside the confessional, so that’s good. The other kids have also tried to “help” him prepare but I don’t think it really has. They’ve told him Fr. will tell him he’s NEVER getting to heaven for THAT sin. Nice. But we are all excited for him. Is that the right word?

On another note….but related, I’ve been reading a little book about St. Gertrude the Great who is credited for this prayer on behalf of souls in purgatory. I came across something pretty humbling.

In all Gertrude’s writings, among the numberless irresistible invitations of the Heart of Jesus urging men to seek Him in the Eucharist, we find but one passage breathing the spirit of severity. It refers to those communicants who permit their tongue to be stained by sins of uncharitableness and criticism. One day after after Holy Communion, as St. Gertrude was thinking with what care she should use her tongue, honored and sanctified as it was above all the members of her body by the Body of Christ being laid thereon in Holy Communion, Our Lord instructed her thus: “One who does not abstain from vain, idle, or sinful discourses, and who approaches Holy Communion without repentance, is like a person who gathers a heap of stones at the threshold of his door to throw at his guest when he comes to visit him, or beats him cruelly on the head with a rod.

Okay, then. Oopsy. Luckily, I was planning to receive the sacrament myself, today. What struck me about this was that the admonition wasn’t regarding what we might normally consider more “serious” sins, (lying, cheating, stealing, coveting) but a behavior which is almost second-nature in our culture, that is judging and questioning or criticizing their choices, weaknesses or mistakes. Those who know me, know that I don’t engage in malicious gossip as a matter of habit, but I do occasionally indulge in the type of uncharitable discourse that I think Jesus spoke to Gertrude about. It’s tough not to criticize or judge others, either in thought or in speaking. But, clearly, it’s not my place and this passage gives good reason not to approach Jesus in the Eucharist if I’ve engaged in it without asking forgiveness and the grace to refrain from it.

It’s sort of like when one of the kids calls one of his siblings a nasty name in my presence. Somehow, it’s more offensive to me than if they did it when I was out of the room. I get it.

Reconsidering Meals and the Role of Food in the Family

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’ve been approaching everything related to food for my family. I finally got around to watching Food, Inc. and I hate to say it, but I wasn’t all that surprised. It’s a “I don’t want to know how hot-dogs are made” kind of mentality. It was gross and it made me furious at big companies that control family farmers. It has inspired me to be a more conscious voter with the dollar and I’m opting out of buying factory-farmed meat products at the supermarket and looking for other sources. Luckily we have a “Right By Nature” about 15 minutes away and it carries affordable options.

Before I dive in, I should tell you we’ve never eaten out very often and we don’t eat a lot of convenience foods but my attitude toward making meals for the family has been pretty utilitarian. As long as I’ve been preparing meals for myself and then for my husband and now for all of us, my approach has been to streamline the process to get it done. Feed them something mostly nutritious that they’ll eat. I don’t mind food that requires a lot of preparation but this isn’t my preference on most nights.

I’m beginning to rethink this and am realizing that the act of planning, preparing and eating a meal together may be the most important of all my duties. Aside from sleep, a healthy, balanced and predictable meal schedule is the physical cornerstone to wellness of each of us and affects every other facet of our days together.

Since my kitchen isn’t attached to our main living area, I got into the habit when the kids were little and would be underfoot, to prepare meals in solitary confinement. When they were small enough to take naps, I’d do prep work ahead of time and let them watch TV while I finished. Mark works 3 evenings a week and doesn’t get home until close to 7 on Sat. and Sun. so I flew solo for meals when the kids were little. Now, they’re old enough to wait for him on the weekends so we eat with him more often than not.

For the most part, I still am in the habit of being in the kitchen by myself while making dinner but I’m realizing that I’m missing an opportunity to

The Word for Me

Remember at the beginning of this year when the blogosphere was abuzz with everyone choosing their word of the year? I hadn’t started a blog when I chose one, so I thought I’d post mine now.

I either didn’t hear about this last year or heard about it too late to be inspired to choose one. I have never been one to make resolutions. I do look forward to the change and momentum that a new year can bring but resolutions never, well, resonated with me.

But choosing a word really does motivate me. I considered about 4 seriously. I even had it narrowed down to 2 and almost hi-jacked Sarah’s word (discipline)-she made such a great case for it in her circumstances and Lord knows, I could stand a little more of it in my life. But then I realized that it wasn’t exactly what I needed to work on.

“Balance” was a possibility because I really think it’s necessary to peace. I’m mindful that balance is important in every endeavor. I didn’t choose this word, though, because I felt like other things needed to happen before I could really work on balance in all areas of my life.

“Patience” made the short list, who couldn’t benefit from a healthy dose of that? Again, I felt like there was a necessary precursor to this which, if not addressed, would set me up for failure. I don’t like to spin my wheels.

Finally, it was 100% clear. (Yes, I considered “clarity” but that’s not the word). “Simplify”. That’s it, that’s the one thing that I crave….simplicity. I didn’t choose “simplicity” because it doesn’t impose any action on my part, simplicity is sort of a state of affairs. “Simplify” is a command, but a gentle one. My friends know that I’m in a constant pursuit to pare down, dejunk, and clear my spaces. But I really don’t think I’ve been intentional about simplifying my life in other ways. I talk about it when I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed but it’s always been more of a reaction than a proaction.

I’m taking it one step at a time but really trying to think about simplifying everything, including meals and shopping, the kids’ school days, managing the house, making commitments, clothing, relationships, entertainment. It’s definitely a challenge especially since I’m only one of 6 people in the family and I can’t simplify without some cooperation on everyone’s part.

Surprisingly, the blog I started about simplifying is helping. It’s definitely keeping me accountable. I can even imagine quitting that blog some day when I’ve streamlined and might view it as an obligation or sabotaging my efforts to do so. For now, though, it’s been a good thing.

I’ll keep you posted on how my efforts to simplify are going.

The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak
 
-Hans Hoffman